Satan, It's On!!

Can I just say that maybe, possibly... I am struggling with God right now?

Well, I can't really say that I am struggling with God, but with my relationship with God.

Yesterday was kinda a turning point for me in realizing my distance with God lately. I recently found a guy, who you can say is my boyfriend, and ever since, I was spending time with him and not with God. I haven't read the Bible, went to church once, and barely go to youth group. I'm behind on my bible courses, and I just don't feel as happy as I used to be than when I had this love and passion for God. I haven't prayed lately, asked for forgiveness for my sins, or really had a conversation with Jesus. Anyone can tell you; I'm a whole different person when I'm close to God. I will admit, I haven't been that person lately. I've been frustrated with people and life in general and I hate it. I know Satan is tempting me and he's winning a battle against my soul. Am I just gonna let him win and take over who I am? Of course not!

Satan is not gonna win this time like he has before. I let Satan get to me because he know I'm vulnerable and weak right now. Time for that to stop! I'm better than that. I want to be strong and have a great and wonderful relationship with Jesus. I want to have those conversations with Him through prayer and tell Him how much He is to me through music. I had my eye on a Christian university in California for when I graduate high school. I don't want to throw away everything I have worked for because of Satan. That's just what he wants.

My Bible is my shield and my faith is my armor. If Satan wants a fight, then a fight is what he's gonna get, and I will guarantee, he is not gonna win.

Satan, I'm waiting for you. Whatever you have for me, I'm ready to throw it back in your face.

Peace.Love.Happiness.Smiles
SammyJane <3

If You Could Go Back In Time, Would You?

I remember when I was probably not even 10 years old yet, and several of my childhood friends were with me and my little sister in the woods while our dads were cutting firewood. It was the middle of winter, but it was one of those mild winters where we didn't have much snow (which is still weird living in Washington State). We went off and before we knew it, we were gathering big tree branches and sticks and stacked them, sort of like an indian teepee, using other big trees for support. And we continued to make what became a fairly small fort, using pine needles and small sticks as a roof and filling in the cracks of the walls. I must say, when we finished, we were pretty proud of it. We even had a group picture of all of us kids (it's somewhere in my house) inside the fort.

That is one childhood memory I will never forget.

Now, I think everyone has probably came across this question in a survey, or was just asked it randomly: If you could go back in time and change one thing from your childhood, what would you change?

Most of you will probably say yes.

Before you make your final answer, I want you to think of where your life is at right now, whether it's good or bad.
Now think about a childhood memory that you wish you could go back and change; If you could go back to that time, what would you do to change it?
Now, imagine what you're life would be like if that change was made. Think about the good your life would be, as well as the bad. What would happen to your boyfriend or girlfriend? Your parents? Your brothers or sisters? Where would you be at? What would your household be like?

If you have seen the Christmas movie "It's A Wonderful Life", George wishes he was never born (of course this is a different example). With the help of Clarence, his guardian angel, he actually got to see what his life would be without him, and he wishes he was back with his family, and realizes that his life is truely great, even when things get bad. When he finally returns to his old life, he began to appreciate his life more and what's in store for him and his family in the future.

It says in 2 Corinthians 5:17, "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"

The old is gone, and the new is coming... there is no way of changing the past.

Back to the question.

Think about it, where would you be at if you decided to change one part of your childhood? You probably won't like it, huh?

We're all gonna go through some tough times in our lives. But know this: those little moments you wish you could change, it makes you the person you are today.

And what about those moments you don't wanna change? Change one memory, and everything else will change.
I know I never wanna forget or change the tree fort memory. It's one of those I'll remember for the rest of my life. Why would I wanna change anything else about my life? Especially when those moments are over?

The old is gone and the new is coming: Let's embrace it and make it the best we can make it.


Peace.Love.Happiness.Smiles.
SammyJane <3