Satan, It's On!!

Can I just say that maybe, possibly... I am struggling with God right now?

Well, I can't really say that I am struggling with God, but with my relationship with God.

Yesterday was kinda a turning point for me in realizing my distance with God lately. I recently found a guy, who you can say is my boyfriend, and ever since, I was spending time with him and not with God. I haven't read the Bible, went to church once, and barely go to youth group. I'm behind on my bible courses, and I just don't feel as happy as I used to be than when I had this love and passion for God. I haven't prayed lately, asked for forgiveness for my sins, or really had a conversation with Jesus. Anyone can tell you; I'm a whole different person when I'm close to God. I will admit, I haven't been that person lately. I've been frustrated with people and life in general and I hate it. I know Satan is tempting me and he's winning a battle against my soul. Am I just gonna let him win and take over who I am? Of course not!

Satan is not gonna win this time like he has before. I let Satan get to me because he know I'm vulnerable and weak right now. Time for that to stop! I'm better than that. I want to be strong and have a great and wonderful relationship with Jesus. I want to have those conversations with Him through prayer and tell Him how much He is to me through music. I had my eye on a Christian university in California for when I graduate high school. I don't want to throw away everything I have worked for because of Satan. That's just what he wants.

My Bible is my shield and my faith is my armor. If Satan wants a fight, then a fight is what he's gonna get, and I will guarantee, he is not gonna win.

Satan, I'm waiting for you. Whatever you have for me, I'm ready to throw it back in your face.

Peace.Love.Happiness.Smiles
SammyJane <3

Who Knew A MOVIE Could Change My Whole Perspective!

So, who remembers the 2004 Mel Gibson movie "Passion of the Christ" that caused so much controversy about it being too graphic?

This movie is probably the most powerful, graphic, gory, emotional, true movie ever made.

The "Passion Of The Christ" is almost close to 3 hours long, and it tells of how Jesus Christ was crucified and rose again based on what is told in the Bible. And I got a chance to watch it (for my second time) at youth group last night.

The first time I watched it was in 2004 when it came out, and when I watched it I didn't quite understand it. I was a little younger (forunately, I didn't get nightmares, nor was I really scared of the graphics. haha), and I didn't really know much about Jesus and about his life story. So it didn't really have a huge impact on me.

I watched it last night at my youth group, and it all started coming together. I have been a faithful Christian for a year and it was so powerful for me. All of the things I read in the New Testament about Jesus' life and crucifixion all just come together like a puzzle.

My experience was this: I watched the movie, not a tear or anything throughtout the whole movie, I just stared at the screen the whole time. My stomach got sick from the graphics, sometimes I would feel a slight pain running through my whole body. The rest of the time, my body was numb.

Right when the credits came on, the tears came out.. It took me a moment to just process what I just watched. It was one of those things that took me a long time to fully understand, and now I do.. Everywhere I looked, someone was crying, praying alone or in groups.. it was definitely a powerful night.

Jesus went through all of that pain and persecution for us! He DIED on that cross for us, for you and for me!

If you have not read my last blog entry "Are You Addicted To Jesus?", then please read it.

I want you to read it because Jesus did die for us on his crucifixion, what are you doing to be devoted to Him?

Peace.Love.Happiness.Smiles.

SammyJane <3